My story starts back in 2020 when I lived in Latvia, Covid19 just ruined my life, to be honest. I was a trainer who made good money, was honest towards everyone who studied in university sports science, and always was making music and art projects as my hobby.  Now looking back and writing this I really see how I was unfortunate. Step by step, I lost my jobs, I was months without any job, without money, and needed to take loans to survive,(that's why I got into huge debt) from the stress tried different ways to make some money and usually lost it. 

Came to Norway for new life and opportunities because one of the companies was interested in coming to Norway, worked as a delivery driver, but never reached the money that was promised... got really depressed at the time was 9months here and wanted to visit my family back home, still didn't pay my debt, been living from paycheck to paycheck for 2 years now. When I came back worked in print on a demand company where I got a bit happier because once in life did a lot of branding, and content creating, for huge Swedish artists that were kind of my dream. But because of not having any contract I didn't get paid and learned a huge lesson to always have contracts with your work... 

Then I came again back to Norway this year in May and finally got a real contract with waitressing company in hotels and restaurants. I was satisfied with everything and thought finally I can get my debt fixed because in those 2 years it had grown soo huge... 

But again it probably wasn't the time for me... my grandmother passed away in July :( Rest in peace her beautiful soul, and she was one of the closest persons in my life... so I needed to go back to Latvia to the funeral. This might be the biggest griefing year for me because in March around my birthday my family dog with whom I grew up  American bulldog named Abija passed away too.  Wanted to stay in Latvia for a bit to get over my griefing period with friends and family, had a job at Radisson blu as a supervisor, but still from paycheck to paycheck putting all my money in my debt monthly fee... And now I'm here writing out my heart and my story hoping maybe at least one person will read this and just feel a bit empathy towards me and maybe share it with someone and in the best chance help me in any way because I'm honestly tired of this rat race runing always for money, bearly enjoying life... 

At least now I came back 2 days ago to Norway where is a beautiful environment, kind and nice people, and fresh air, got some jobs now for next week and hope that will make it next year enough money to pay for all my debt, and just can go back finish my studies last year in university, so I could work in my industry been taking gap years for too long too, because of how everything happened. 

Promised me to hustle more and when next time I go back home to everyone I will be finished with my debt, but it always takes a great amount of energy and time. And hope this time I will fix it till the last penny, let's say it now that that's my Christmas wish, for Christmas! 

The pictures I put on this post are my personal designs from when I worked a lot with painting just before 2020 and there still available to order on Etsy just thought if you would want something in return it is a way to help me a bit too, hadn't made any sales on them either since I posted them there but maybe after hearing my story someone would like to have one will add a link: 

https://www.etsy.com/no-en/shop/ArtStudioGaisma?ref=profile_header

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